Where The Sidewalk Cracks

there's still this little hand waving from the curryland. its wet and filled with moss here.

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

baby, imissyou
and nickleback made me think of you

`Inspiree Me

I don't update cause I don't have anything to post about.
I don't want to post about my pathetic little life and how cute I now find gibbons are (after much googling & reed la for implanting it into my head they are),

oh, btw,

did you know furry blonde gibbons are to die for?

:D

It's been centuries, no AEONS since I last blogged and there's too many things gng on, I want to post up, js procrastination is at its best.

The ainessa has left for melb for real this time :(

So now, I couldn’t randomly call ness when I’m stuck waiting at decanter or at any place, actually.

My boob bump babe is back at NSW.

There are people, here and there I’ve met over the holidays; lishen, jeff, bridget, ling, bow, mich, kei (whos got into the most drama ever), the classmates, the other random people? I can’t think of everyone now. Its nice seeing familiar faces again.

I shall make this a Super long post to make up for my super long absence. :)

Recently I’ve been so awed by hypnotherapy (: I wonder if I should be a shrink, but its not medicine related, I think. I’ve had weird dreams bout the results, my paranoid mind have been catching up lately. Wish me luck!

All right, so I suppose that it's about time that I gave this long-dead blog an update. (:

Seriously, so much has happened since I last updated! I have no idea where to start.

Kuantan was awesome, eventhough towards the end of it I started getting awful body aches (alright, its cos of the yoga) and lots of sleep debt to catch to boot. Really loved every minute of it though. :) The event, not the “errands”. HAHA.

Reed: you know the security guards at this hotel are armed, in case monkeys starts running into the lobby, they get shot.

Carm: OMG serious? Eh Kuantan people are damn cruel la. Ganas!

Reed & Ness : HAHAHAHAHAH

:(

Poker session was AWESOME! Our system of playing is freeeaking cool, I love the small bit of my class la. Even though they’re like all cinapeks (I have to admit I’m kind of against cinapeks. Hee)

giving away chips :P because i can & also because i'm such a nice friend. meh.

okay okay, fine. its cz i'm kiamsiap to buy in again, while these people kept giving me enough chips to play another round ;)

winner winner chicken dinner!

The many late nights at Delicious & many other places I don’t remember of was really great too. (: all the juicy updates & catching up. except the part where I had to make everyone hurry to rush home by midnight. Hee. I guess all of Kei's charring and merajuking at times really worked cos then all the plans of gng out late night would have PHAILED because I would have bailed with excuses cos I was either too lazy or sleepy. MIRACLE! Hahahaha. I love you people, and enjoyed every minute I whinned bout it.

Ness: i'm sure this is going to the blog, with caption saying "the awesome hotchocolate i had at DELICIOUS"

*rolls eyes*

Kei: & you never come to Delicious - the one near u-thant if u dont have a picture of this

*eyeballs falling off*

Don’t forget the skype sessions.. haha the ultimate prank!

It goes something like that.

Michelle Wong says: its 3 weeks
Carm says: michelle! Preggers?

Michelle Wong says: yeah. I’m getting married next week at Hilton. It’s a small wedding with family & close friends. U’re all welcomed to come.

Emkay Lew & Carm says:

ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS? OWH EMM GEE!

*emkay calls michelle ALL THE WAY FROM PERTH* & put it on loudspeaker cos I’m kaypoh enough to have not miss out anything

*carm proceeds to call michelle (cos its cheaper) * the same 3 way convo

Carm says:

Are u sure anot? Did u check with more than one pregnancy kit. Sometimes it might not be accurate

Michelle Wong says:

I checked with the doctor.

Emkay Lew says:

I’m flying over to attend! YOU’RE PREGNANT? I’ll hit you with a stainless steal pan

Carm says:

I’m gng to be the godmother!

*at this point, sei michelle changes her PM into “you’ve been PUNK’D” *

Emkay Lew says:

Pls la i’ll be the godmother. &I’m gng to hit you with a stainless steal pan la michelle.

*michelle was all apologizing & shit, but then later informed us that if it weren’t for her parents to be around her during our calls, she would have said she’ll be having an abortion*

Part 2.

Carm & Emkay Lew says: (separately tho, in separate versions)

Ness, ness, OMG michelle is PREGNANT & IS HAVING A WEDDING AT HILTON NEXT WEEK, u’re cordially invited to attend

Ness says:

Omg u serious?

*after a long string of converned questions ness asked, (because Ness is gullible) :p *

Till a point where,

Ness says:

Mich, are u gng to continue your degree? We’ll help you out. Is this what u want?

Michelle Wong says:

I will continue classes until the baby bump shows. I dunno ness, I’m still so young, I still want to party & go clubbing.

Ness says:

You shouldn’t, u have to think whats best for the baby. I’m searching for online courses that you could benefit from.

Carm says:

Omg she’s getting abit too serious now, should we tell should we tell?

Michelle Wong & Emkay Lew says:

Haha yea yea. Its just too fun to stop

*cos at this point, we’ve all laughed till our tummies ached*

Ness say:

omg la i changed laptops & all, go through all the trouble. had to even explain to my dad who refuse to take no for an answer while physically bodyslamming me FOR BEING PRANKED? hmph! >:(

When ness finally found out, in which, she was really mad but then, at least. We found out that we’ve got such caring friends : ) they proceeded to prank kei who called me after being pranked, cos I dc-ed & wasn’t there to witness

Such dramaqueens! Still, love lovesss

I love my girls :D

I like doing things for people I care about.
Tuesdays ago, was the big legal 18^th Slash Farewell Party of my favourite girl. The day before the party we were s’posed to bake, something we’ve said a million times but finally come close to doing. Hee. In the end, plans changed cos the not-so-fabulous ainessa couldn’t find something to wear when she’s got a closet full of dresses! Pfftt.. we ended up searching high & low at klcc till our legs were sore, tho js in flops.

because aineesa is js all wrapped up in skin & bones. its almost impossible to fit her properly in a dress without any alteration. so i was all, taylor-woman-ey. gng, u js have to hitch this thing up a bit here & fix that there. then voila.

&ohh, i had bangs over the holidays :)

the colours IS LOVE

I got her “implants”.Also, reed & I shared for her mufflers. just so she’ll look big on top & not freeze into an ice popsicle after months of being in melb. But I conveniently left it on the counter RIGHT BEFORE we left the house. Tht’s me for being absentminded at all times :P This friend is super special to me, and we have our special threesome & we are at the same level of height, I love her simply because sometimes I think that she's the most concerned about my wellbeing, more than any of my other friends.

i'm posting the rest on fb, maybe later?

i want some shrinking powder, so that i might be like those leggy skinny bitches. but uber hot HOT HOT ones. Hee.

this is also a photo in commemoration of how much we wanted you there EMKAY LEW :P

ok now i feel super accomplish.
`Ta Raaa x

Crash & Burn

i was in the middle of a near-death experience today. almost died, burnt in flames in my car because i was blaring music in the car as usual. if it weren’t for the neighbour car pointing at me while the lights were red , did I know that one of my tyres is letting out smoke. Initially I thought he was showing me his favourite finger &cos it was so bloody early in the morning so i malas to layan him until he started honking. I was damn scared la so I drove off to the nearest petrol station & made calls. What a great way to wake up, seriously. anyway, i ended up shoving back my dulan face that was about to show and thank god I’m not burnt in flames. The car is fixed, its Mum’s fault for once, she was the one who hit the curb the day before.

i have plenty more to fume about actually. but..oh you know.

p/s darrengoon: people fall just to stand taller :)

we're all average people. i'm scared of my grades too & i'll have to admit i'm a kiasu at heart.

Never Say Never - perfect earfood.

x Carmen

I'm Still Alive

i know i MIA for too damn long from now.
i had alot of studies to do, stuff to get me on to uni.. didn't want to end up a garbage collector. but right now, there's too many places, too many people, too many poker games :P

who's up for SS session tmr. then maybe poker? i'm addicted, maybe because i had the luck the other day..

i'll update on full later. pictures & more... i promise
just don't give up on me yet.
i haven't left you for dead yet dear blog, its just that i had a fling. our group blog's more happening, & hotter :P

i know this place is deserted when i found this lying in my drafts, since i dont even remember thinking things this way in a long time. i dont even know who this was/going to be intended to

Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn’t mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's all inside of you. It’s what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters. It's the only thing you can see. It’s the only thing that counts.

People know the truth, they may not like it, or want to know it, but they always know. Lie and you will lose her.

Life is pretty much in the grays for the most part and if you insist always on black and white... you are going to be very unhappy. Talk to him. Don't give up so easily.

x Carmen

In Your Face Adam Lambert Fans

you give the man an accoustic & the stage
& you get THIS

KRIS ALLEN IS LOVEEEE :DD

my fav picks are;
heartless,
falling slowly
& ain't no sunshine

so, who cares if adam is better with "no boundaries" by Kara. its the guy next door that trumps the guy with the eyeliner & black nailpolish who screams throughout songs!

with love, from the living dead

SORRY FOR THE MIA-ING

well, this is for me bitch who js celebrated her big 19! & the bf who js celebrated a day before her. & their anniversary somewhere in between. (damn, these dates are all together, there's no reason not to forget, no?) welcome to the club. we're all old, like u know, in between. not 21 YET, no longer 18.

here's to the lack of photos, i'll maybe put it on when i'm back on my useless laptop. i'm stealing my bro's comp cos he's not allowed to use. hee hee :P anyhoo, to my seiyeh-BITCHling-awesomerific pincher :))) you are the bestest best.

MS TAN YUAN LINGGGGG

who is happy because i'm short.
who writes uncountable notes and scribbles & letters while lesson's boring
who agreed about boys who come and go, but best friends stay forever
who pinches my face whenever she feels like it
who laughed so hard at the bio teacher with that pale-as-paper face, that zeshen & i had to turn away & pretended that we didnt knw them
who draws weather dolls & believes in them
who talks (okay, char) me in a certain way that people won't understand,
who takes me on her side, as how she is on mine,
who has been there for me,
during failures,fights,fuckups and lonely concerts

so what if u seem bitchy, so what if some people thinks u're unbelievably pretty & some thinks rather not. u're still that bitch who's smiling patronisingly at me while shaking my hands for the first time when i entered wesley & the rest was history.

LOVE LOVES

The Math Theory in Epic Porportions

to that tricky question you were doing over & over again. you finally decided that this is the final attempt before you bang your fists on the paper & give up. ionically, you find the correct solution. jampacked emotions running through. there is not a second to waste, you flip frantatically to the back of the page, only to find the answers not there.

there is no way to know if there were mistakes made, or if you were right all along? what else have you got but trust that blank, blind instincts of yours & wishful thinkings...

...what if they were wrong like before? i don`t want to again freefall into nothing